When Does Inspiration Strike?

How does one find the motivation to go the gym? I mean really. We're coming to the middle of February in Chicago with a snow storm headed our way and I'm supposed to want to leave my apartment, walk the 7 blocks to the gym and work out? What would ever possess me to want to do that?

When I made the commitment to live a healthier lifestyle 4 months ago I had motivation all over the place. I was a woman on a mission and I was going to listen to trainer Dave and live right by everything he told me in that introductory session. Going to work out 5 times a week was something that I was all over and I would not allow myself any excuses not to go. But by mid-December (when I had lost about 18 pounds, was looking pretty good and feeling pretty good) I fell out of my work out routine. I went home for a few weeks for Christmas and ever since returning I just can't find any motivation to go. I tell myself that I'm up way too early for work or I have errands I really need to accomplish so setting aside 2 hours to spend at the gym isn't feasible. But the whole time I'm saying this to myself another part of me is screaming that I am full of shit. And I know I am!! Yes, I would in fact like to do my laundry and go to the grocery store but I'm not spending 8 hours doing either of those activities. I can easily fit in a work out. I've even taken my gym bag to work with me so I won't go home. Oh no, even that doesn't stop me from my own bull shit. When my bus comes to my bus stop I'll decide to get off instead of going two more stops and spending my time doing something worthwhile.

I was so motivated in the beginning and the fact that I'm not at all now is so disconcerting. I mean, how does anyone stick to a work out plan? If there's one thing I've learned in all my years of being a fat kid it's that you have to want to lose weight for yourself and you have to be ready to do it. I thought I had hit that point back in October, but maybe I didn't. Or maybe this is just one of those tests you need to push through in order to come out on the other side. I feel like an addict because I keep telling myself to just take it one day at a time, but that doesn't seem to be working. I just keep making the excuses and end up sitting on my couch watching 5 episodes of NCIS. All I know is that sooner or later that inspiration needs to strike otherwise the only thing I'll be losing is $80 a month on a gym membership I'm not using.